On Rage and Rumination.
A case-study about the Luminous Mirror process.
Have you ever been so triggered that it feels like a wild animal has been unleashed in your chest? A rage or a grief or a heartbreak that moves within you with a mind of its own?
Or perhaps it’s not so dramatic, but that person said that thing, and now you can’t stop thinking about it. Even when you try to stop, your brain keeps going over it again and again.
These are gifts, my dear.
They are illuminating an unconscious belief that has been clouding your perception. Since this false belief is a lens through which you see the world, the lens itself is nearly invisible - until you are triggered.
When a client brings one of these moments to me to work on, they are feeling the heaviness of their suffering. But I celebrate. I celebrate because I know it means that they have walked around with this suffering long enough and they are ready to release it.
I’ll give you an example.
A recent client describes sitting down to the lunch they had prepared. As they looked at their food, they had a memory of an ex-partner from over a decade ago. In that memory, their ex was berating them because they didn’t like the way their food had been prepared. As my client ate their lunch in present time, they found themselves ruminating on that old memory and the pain and anger they had about it. They couldn’t let it go.
The client brought this memory to me, and we began the mapping process. Mapping the field is a technique every Family Constellation facilitator uses; however, in this case, rather than using it to identify family and ancestral patterns, I use the mapping technique to trace down to the core identity-level belief that is at the center of your triggering event.
This identity-level belief usually emerges from a very specific type of trauma: a childhood event that was sudden, unexpected, and isolating. That trauma is almost always connected to family or ancestral patterns, or to soul-level (past life) trauma, so it is also possible to reach it using a Family Constellation process. However, when I’m working with what I am calling the Luminous Mirror process, the intention is to find the event in your personal lived experience, usually your childhood.
As we began the mapping process, the client described being regularly berated by their ex. When we went back further, they had an image from childhood: their father berating them as a child for “showing off”.
The identity-level belief that they saw was this: “when I step into my power, my relationships end.” The consequence of this belief was that they would use their power against themselves to suppress their own life-force as a way to maintain their relationships.
Seeing this belief initiates change, but in the Luminous Mirror process, we go deeper - with the intention of completely clearing the old belief system so that you can experience the Greater Reality of who you are.
The next step is a polarity practice in which the client is supported to reconcile the opposites within their belief.
For example, in this case, the polarities we worked with were power and controlled powerlessness, because this was the tension that played out in the client’s relationships.
The polarity process has a few steps, but in the final step, you enter the stillpoint between the two poles. When you enter this space, you are stepping into your Greater Self. The experience is profound.
When my client entered the stillpoint, they described: Safety. Welcome. No separation. Unshakeable truth.
From here, I ask the client about their old belief: my power ends relationships.
As the client takes in the words, they observe: “There is something all-knowing about this place. Those words - they just hang in the air. They can’t touch the unshakeable truth of this place…Those words cannot be true. This place is bereft of domination. It’s not possible to end relationships.”
What is the truth, then? I ask.
The client describes feeling connected to the Earth with profound experience of oneness, and says:
“My power doesn’t end relationships. My power is relationship.”
We close the session here.
They emailed me the next day to describe the impact not just on their own lives, but in their work.
“Our session yesterday, while I continue to sit with the impact unfolding, has made my work with clients today so much more attuned and intuitive! All 3 of them today ended up feeling more empowered after experiencing hopelessness. I didn't know constellations could be done without instruments/representatives/artwork and I didn't think Focusing could be done (our work yesterday felt a lot like Focusing) with relationships between things internally. Brilliant! Thank you!”
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Are you interested in working with your own triggers and ruminating thoughts? Do you want to feel your liberation, brightness, and life force energy without false identity structures clouding your perception?
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I look forward to working with you!
Aitabé
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About “Luminous Mirror”:
This process is the result of my own inquiry into clearing egoic projections. In asking for guidance, I received numerous insights and found my way to several teachers who shared different versions of emotional processing and polarity techniques (Lucia Rene, Leslie Temple-Thurston, Elizabeth Wysen, John Kesler). It was the work of Brandon Bozarth and his training in German New Medicine that provided the insight about identifying the identity-level belief that arises from a sudden, unexpected, isolating event that added the final element for me. I used these techniques for my own emotional processing, and if you choose to work with me, I will share what I have learned with you.
I have not trained directly with any of these practitioners. I am not a trained or licensed medical or mental health practitioner. My work is for educational purposes only.
